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Brandon Bays takes her reader on a journey of astounding inspiration.

Brandon Bays is a remarkable soul, and her story of healing and reconciliation is a testament to the capabilities of human beings. Read this book and be inspired to take your own journey of healing!

Brandon's inspiring story is proof of the healing power that exists within every individual.

A very powerful and deeply moving book. I couldn't put it down. It has been the beginning of my own spiritual journey. I've encouraged all my friends and loved ones to read it. It moved me to tears and gave me courage and a sense of calm. I wish I had seen Brandon in person when she came to Australia.

We read, we saw, we recommended. Such an easy read, yet full of understanding and help. Everyone, whether healthy, ailing, depressed, addicted whoever and whatsoever should read this book and listen to their inner self. Brandon Bays shares her experiences both good and bad and helps you to tackle yours. I have recommended many people to read and keep giving my copy away. One day I hope that my partner and I can see and meet Brandon in person and attend her meetings.

There are seminars - and there's The Journey. The others seem just like background preparation for The Journey, where the real business gets done. Massive thanks!

A very fulfilling beautiful experience. At first I had serious doubts if I could be a processor and do the work but my experience was most successful, positive, full of surrounding love and encouragement. I was able to open up so much and felt good about the fact that I processed effectively.

The spirit of wisdom, invitation to greatness and wholeness was with everything. As a trainer I was able to gain a new perspective that has deepened my understanding of application of all the concepts and principle that accompany the use of both the emotional and physical journey.

Wow! By doing the physical process with all those mini-processes we learned, I went deeper into the core of my emotion than I have ever gone before and the results were amazing.

With the tools I have now and the ones I with learned in Advanced Skills I have so much hope for my future (and I haven't had that in a very long time).

I made the wish to find my true love inside myself and I finally got there!

I want to share this, so that all of you are aware of a tremendous energy emerging within The Journey. I spent last week doing Conscious Leadership and I just want to say that it is the most powerful, liberating work and week that I have ever lived. I paid for the entire (Visionary Leadership) programme, all 3 weeks, up front. By day 2, I had received way more than my money's worth, with the deepest, most profound process of my life, all modalities included, and it didn't end there. I feel that I have participated in the evolution of freedom for this planet.

The Journey assists children, adolescents, as well as adults, gain in self-confidence and self-love and often decreases their symptoms of depression and anxiety. Whether a child is in "traditional" psychotherapy, on medication, or has just been affected by "normal" life events, The Journey is definitely an effective and valuable tool to help him, or her, become more resilient and improve well-being!

I worked with a high school girl who continuously cut herself. After two journeys, as we were dropping down through the emotional layers into Source, she sort of smiled, eyes closed, was quiet for a moment, and then said, “Ohhh, I forgot that's who I am.” Since then she has started to take care of her health, dressed with more care, and is on school committees. It seems she is feeling much better about herself now that she has begun to “remember who she really is.” Her mother told me to get ready, that she is going to spread the word throughout the high school.

I have recently had the opportunity to take 3 emotional journeys with a wonderful lady studying to become a practitioner of your life-changing course. What I have undergone is nothing short of phenomenal. I have uncovered two major life-changing experiences I had buried deep in my subconscious and I have learned to deal with feelings and emotions in a way that has completely changed my life.

I am 50 years old and I have been manic-depressive and bi-polar all my life. I was until recently taking three different antidepressant medications (Lamictal, Prozac, Adderall) at the same time just to function in my daily life. I have been gradually cutting back on the meds until one is completely eliminated from my life and the other two are at a quarter of what I was taking soon to be gone also.

I feel better than I have ever felt and I am better able to deal with life in general than I ever imagined possible. I still have a long way to go to be completely healed but in one short month I have come farther than I could have ever hoped for. My last journey created such cellular cleansing that I have been physically feeling the effects for the past week. Today I feel clear and like a new man. My story is like so many you have probably heard so I won't go into all the long details, but I would like to say that what you have done for me this past month is absolutely miraculous. I just wanted to write to say thank you for saving my life. I actually see my future bright and happy for the first time in more years than I can even remember.

I am completely off all antidepressants, I am happy and I feel like I have a life for the first time in over 30 years. Some antidepressants are almost narcotic in the way they make your body dependent on them so I had to gradually stop taking them rather than stop all at once, that is why it has taken me a while to get off them. This has worked for me where hypnotherapy, professional counselors, self-help, and numerous other processes have completely failed for me.

I didn’t know what to expect coming into this weekend so I feared even being here. I recently have survived the death of my significant other and the journey has made me realize that throughout that experience of death when I thought I was being strong… I really wasn't. All I did was set myself up for more failure. The Journey has taught me that by shoving your feelings or emotions down that it will only hurt me worse instead of just letting them go and not having physical problems like pain and anxiety.

My wife and I celebrated our 23rd wedding anniversary on Sunday. We normally go to a beach in the south. But we did The Journey Intensive and Advanced Skills Day. It was an anniversary we will carry and live the rest of our lives. It brought us closer together than any sunny beach. Thank you.

I was a single mother living on food stamps and about $850 a month supporting two children and living in the middle of nowhere up in the mountains. My car broke down and I had no way to fix it. I also had overwhelming Credit card debt etc. I had tried over 6 home businesses trying to make something work so I could stay at home with my girls. I was a mess and so was my life.

I ended up going to the Journey Abundance Retreat and it completely changed my life as I watched the old patterns disappear and the new stuff start to manifest. Interestingly enough my heart's desire wasn't about money or the stuff, it was actually about my connections with source and balance to staying true to myself to be a better person. After that process that weekend, I was offered a Job here at the Journey and I more that tripled my income and was able to go through the practitioner program. I now have a beautiful home with a Garden, waterfall, roses, Nice car, Fabulous furniture etc. living in a neighbor hood with a swimming pool, parks etc. I have my credit cards under control and I just bought a second home.

After my second Abundance retreat I was able to manifest a fabulous relationship with a man that I am now engaged to who truly loves me for who I am. After my third Abundance retreat I was able to settle some issues with my children and more with my credit cards and I watched as the money came pouring in from unexpected sources. I have been amazed at how things have manifested in my life over that last year that I have been doing this work. I feel more at peace now then I ever had. I also now have tools, including the abundance process, to deal with the issues that come up in my life

It's up to you what you decide to do. I can tell you that the Journey has been absolutely life changing for me and my children and some family members.

I attended Brandon's Abundance seminar in Nov. The day after I registered for the seminar my husband, the sole provider for our family of four, lost his job. With the national financial forecast getting worse by the day, I came to the seminar with a huge knot of fear in my gut and panic in my chest. I was completely terrified that we would lose our house and we had discussed the need to put our home on the market January 1. I was afraid that it might take a protracted period to sell, like the other homes in our area, and in the meantime we would burn through our savings.

After my Abundance process I was still a little doubtful of the success of my Process. I didn't feel any huge shift and worried that maybe I hadn't done the Process as well or as deeply as I could have. On top of which I had to leave the seminar a few hours early to catch my flight so I missed the big integration. I left feeling troubled that I'd squandered my opportunity to manifest abundance.

In the following days and weeks I noticed little things happening. I felt much more relaxed and so my marriage improved dramatically. I'd hear about a book on a morning show, decide I wanted to pick it up and then I'd open my email and find a coupon from a bookstore. I'd think about renting a particular movie and turn on the TV and see that it was on cable later that night. I'd go to a store to buy something specific and find that it was on sale or clearance.

We got a warm spell over Christmas break so we decided clean out the garage by unpacking the boxes that filled it. The boxes were from my parents' home that we'd cleaned out after they both died in close succession the previous year. I finally felt strong enough to face the task, and it turned out to be such a beautiful experience. It had been so long since I'd packed the boxes that I had forgotten the beautiful things I'd selected from their home. As I integrated their things into my home I was filled with so much love and gratitude. Over the holidays I'd been missing my folks and due to our financial predicament, we'd only gotten gifts for our kids. These boxes seemed to me like my parents were redecorating our whole house for Christmas; like the biggest and best Christmas presents of my life! Every piece hand chosen by them, placed throughout every room of my home. I could feel them everywhere I looked! It was the most amazing, soul touching experience!

On December 30, we got a call from the bank. They found a bank error; we'd been making double mortgage payments since we'd bought our home! As a result, we didn't owe another mortgage payment until April 2010!!!! And two days before our self imposed deadline!!! We called it the Christmas Miracle and called to tell all of our family and friends.

A few weeks later my car wouldn't start. My car had 98,000 miles on it and had recently started threatening expensive repairs. We'd been thinking about replacing it for some time, but were very leery of a car payment. That morning when my car wouldn't start on the first try, I felt like it was giving me the heads-up to cut bait while it was still running. It had carried our family faithfully & reliably since our babies had come home from the hospital nine years ago. On a hunch, I called the CPA handling the irrevocable retirement trust fund my parents left me. He said he had been just about to cut me a check for the dividends, to which I had no knowledge I was entitled! He told me to go get a car and he'd wire the money that same day!!! Not only did I get a new car, but the dealer knocked $6,000 off the sticker!!! Nothing to worry about car-wise except oil changes for the next few years!

I keep pinching myself because the abundance in my life since the seminar is almost unbelievable! When I share my story with family and friends, their jaws hang open with awe. I can't wait to see what happens next and it's only March! My gratitude to The Journey work and Brandon Bays herself is beyond words. The power of the work speaks for itself. By the way, the money I have left from the dividend check I've ear marked for more Journey seminars!!!

P.S. Oh yeah, two days after I got home from Abundance I quit smoking. It's been over 3 month now and counting...

If there was an instant social healing package out there we would be the first to grab it. The Journey Intensive has got to be the healing for us. It's the closest thing to an instant healing package.

We came across Journey work just prior to my husband Arsene going through his stem cell transplant in dealing with Leukemia. In doing the Journey Processes as well as other healing approaches Arsene found his recovery both quick and challenging. In addition to our spiritual life the journey work provided him with a concrete tool to clear out the emotional issues that were lodged in his cell memory particularly in his bone marrow.

The work has been so rewarding and helpful for all of us including our children. This very safe and respectful process has only complimented all that we do naturally in our life. The commitment and care has been there for him to dive into the process work and continue using it as a natural process for personal healing and wellness.

What I received was beyond my wildest dreams. I received physical and spiritual healing. I got to see the face of God.

I was diagnosed with a spinal tumour and read 'The Journey' while convalescing. Choosing Journey work has changed my life beyond my wildest dreams – especially revisiting situations in my past that I hadn't dealt with well. It's truly liberating for the mind and body.

I believe that 'The Journey' has allowed me to heal past depression and negative self concepts. A relationship conflict made me realise that I was still carrying unresolved childhood perceptions and behavioural patterns that were proving to be unhelpful now. I feel that The Journey gave me a new level of understanding of my childhood and parents and that forgiveness allowed me to move on. It is like a heavy burden has lifted off my shoulders. Life has become a lot more manageable and fun.

I searched this whole lifetime for who I am, for the definition of my beliefs, for the direction of my life. I traveled to India and back again. I meditated...not successfully. I searched for spiritual and emotional soundness, always under a pall of depression. I was considered a spiritual teacher by some and knew it was a lie. I've a masters in psych and Multiple certifications in life coaching and NLP. Yet as much as I wanted to serve and help, I could not bring myself to work with people. There was not a degree that would lessen the fear that I was not enough for them. (I wasn't. I didn't realize it wasn't about me.) The further I searched the more discouraged I became with tremendous feelings of failure, of being Lost and mostly of grief for not being who I knew I could be.

The process of experiencing and living the Journey has given me life. On the other side of the Practitioner program I have found peace and appreciation for who I am and where I am. I have self confidence for the first time in my life. The Journey has allowed me to choose how to define myself in this life and to be that. How powerful that has been for me. I am no longer trying but doing. I am no longer searching but living. And I look forward to each day's growth with the knowing that this only gets better.

I once heard that "Your life is God's gift to you. What you do with it is your gift to God". The Journey has allowed me to offer that gift with inner knowing, strength, choice and meaning. Life is good.

I was very impressed with the entire week. The content of the (No Ego) program and the way in which it was presented was phenomenal. I was deeply moved by the amount thought and effort that is put into teaching this program in a way that is not only so hugely transformational but also very entertaining. I had so much fun...what a blessing, esp as none of us knew what to expect ....and some of us were expecting the worst! :-)

Who knew that going so deep and experiencing such transformation could also be experienced side by side with humor, lightheartedness and fun? I have thrown away the false belief that this has to be hard work.

From the first day the powerful potential of this program was evident, and the energy in the room created such a cradle of love and support that I truly found it quite effortless to open and engage in every exercise fully. Even those rare few moments when I found relating to a particular Ego fixation a little difficult I would quickly find myself receiving a profound insight from within, sometimes at the last moment, which then assisted me in opening even further and gaining valuable insight into my behaviors and motivations behind them.

While I have known for a very long time that fear was running my programming I never understood what the drive was. What relief to now know and at the same time to be able to let go of the need to understand any specifics as to "why". I would never have believed that identifying with a particular Ego fixation could lead to such freedom. As I watch my mind trying to embellish and glorify the association with the fixation (by replaying aspects the of the week) I can now make the choice from Truth as to what it is I really want to Be...a 6 fixation or Truth effortlessly freeing itself from such a false identity. The answer is more than obvious :-)

At the same time I feel a sense of compassion for myself ( and others) that was not present before. I have so resisted the "mind type" label. I have felt so trapped and controlled by my thoughts and the power that my false mind has had over me that the idea of embracing Mind seemed incomprehensible and terrifying. Then Brandon's description of "Pure Awareness" touched my heart and drew me into it's embrace. I began to feel a desire to live more deeply and expansively in this place of Pure Awareness that I have often had brief experiences of but resisted and refused to validate. I found myself feeling a deep desire to open myself completely up to being "Pure Awareness" and actually felt a sense of hope and excitement rising up from within...it was as if someone had called my name from Truth and I could finally recognize and embrace myself for the first time in my life...giving myself permission to drop all resistance and live from this place that I have so long denied.

When were done I called home and left a message for my family. I told them how happy I was, how enjoyable the week had been and that I loved them...I repeated that twice, "I LOVE you" because it felt so good to say it and to actually feel it. I do not remember ever feeling those words inside of me when I have said them. I am so truly grateful.

Thank you all again for the profound love and caring that you express so beautifully to everyone of us and the cradle of support that you create just by your presence. Never in my life had I felt so loved and so safe as I felt this past week. I truly believe that the loving and safe space that you created is what allowed me to really open and experience such profound shifts, awarenesses and the deep, and much longed for, awakening of my Spirit.

I have come away from No Ego with so many gifts. I have never felt as blessed in my life as I do in this moment.

I love all of you deeply. Thank you so very,very much.

I am so happy and really amazed.

I was home alone, kind of worried about some familiar things. And then I dreamt of a little boy who came to me and told me I would never be alone anymore, that he would be with me and with my husband forever. Then I dreamt I saw you guys, and I told you I was pregnant. Well, I woke up crying, really touched. But I couldn´t be pregnant. It was so soon after the workshop.

Well, I confirmed it. I AM PREGNANT! I can´t believe it!! It is sooo soon! My Journeys did take me to do a lot of work in my belly. So I guess I am ready now to be a mom! As soon as 2 weeks after the workshop.
Thank you so much!

I am the mexican who took the Journey seminar in Houston and got pregnant immediately after the workshop! I am so glad to get in touch again! Every time I see my baby girl, I feel so grateful for all of you!

After what I LIVED with the journey, I want to help not only my baby girl but a lot of people around me. (actually, I have been doing some journey work with my family and a couple of friends. One of them got rid of breast cancer!!!) But I know I need more knowledge to be able to help more. I´d love to complete the practitioners program!

Thank you all!

I recommend The Journey to anyone who is ready to face up. It may not make you rich, take off the pounds, and still cut through a tin can, but it will map out a road to the bottom of things. It will move you out of your head and into your heart, where healing takes place. Brandon asks only that you "dip your foot into Source," for that is enough to keep you forever.

As a traditional psychiatrist I had always felt that even the best psychotherapy can be slow and, at times, may only go so far and that medications, although may help, often seem to just put a Band-Aid on our deepest emotional and physical wounds.

The Journey has been truly life-changing for me and the people that I have had the honor to work with during a process. After using a multitude of alternative and complementary modalities, The Journey has finally opened a world that I never dreamed was possible in this lifetime. I am in much gratitude and awe for the love and freedom that is here for all of us.

Before the Journey I had lived a life of abuse. I chose two abusive husbands, both physical and emotional. When I left my second husband, I knew I was at a cross-roads. I chose to face my demons and find out what was driving this self-destructive pattern. The first steps to freedom came when I realized that I believed myself to be unloveable. Through the Journey I was given the tools to let the pain go and forgive the people in my past and to forgive myself. Learning to love myself has changed my life, changed lives around me.

I truly feel like I've evolved from "Orphan Annie" to "Annie Get Your Gun" with ammunition unlimited in the shape of balloons filled with voice, courage, strength, self-worth, self-esteem and unconditional love, I am in awe over God's amazing grace and how if i take one step towards Him; He is standing there with outstretched arms.

During the summer months of my farming I went through a powerful process in which i had my dad at the campfire. My dad committed suicide 28 years ago. I thought i had forgiven him many times over but truth spoke different. Because my dad had abandoned me - no goodbye, no left behind note - nothing; I shut down to God's way of life. I had this clear awareness that dad being a man, there was no way i was going to let a man of leadership and of fatherly qualities into my life. 28 years went by where i went to church, sat in a wooden pew, played organ, taught Sunday School and the reality of that was - a numb state. I called myself a Christian reluctantly only b/c that's what we do but had no feelings of truth towards God. My heart felt cold and icy at the best of times. I couldn't accept God (good orderly direction) into my life b/c i was closed. The door to my heart was bolted shut.

Well! I feel empowered with His saving Grace. I feel. Once i dropped down the layers and felt the warmth, saw light, felt embraced and safe, I am feeling such a calm. I feel like a woman with a toolbox.

And again this weekend. Same people at the campfire. Approaching them from a different angle and feeling their forgiveness and passing it forward. Amazing Grace.

I want more Journeywork experience in my life. I feel it in the very being of me. And it will happen.

Two days later after The Journey Intensive weekend, I could no longer feel my lump in my breast. My next mammogram confirmed it had gone... I feel the Journey saved my life.

I was diagnosed as needing a hysterectomy and back surgery. I also had a breast lump. Within three months of starting Journey work I was medically clear and pain free!

I had suffered for 25 years with serious migraine headaches. After undergoing Journey processing the headaches have completely stopped! I feel great!

I have known seven and a half years of pain and torment with M.E., including paralysis and renal failure. Thanks to The Journey I'm fully recovered, self-supportive and working full-time. I'm free!

I can't say enough about the impact that your training (guidance) had on me and on my relationship with my partner. We have been dipping into that toolbox frequently throughout this week and have re-connected at a level we've been missing for several years! ... after 25 years of being together, habit had obscured much of that view and connection and we needed to begin a critical cleaning of the filters that have been dulling our sparkle. We are now looking at the path ahead as adventure...

I had the most incredible Journey. My mind was taking me to one place, but source told me to relax and guided me to the place that I needed to be. All my life I wanted to know why I could not express my thoughts out loud? Why my self esteem was so low? Having two parents who gave me as much unconditional love as two human beings possibly could, I had no idea where it came from.

My source took me to the place when I was three years old in the hospital. The doctor who had to perform surgery (removing the tonsils) asked me to open my mouth and when I refused, he hit me on my face 5 or 6 times. It was a very dramatic event for a three year old child ...this event influenced my life tremendously: my grades, my marriage. On the energetic level, every time I was planning to talk I had a horrendous fear that something terrible would happen...(through the process) I GOT MY VOICE BACK.

How to put into writing healing stories using Journeywork to share about the marvelous, wonderful, unique tool that is The Journey? Where do I begin? How do I start to share what for me is a daily occurrence? Everyday in my office I witness deep, lasting transformation. I see people freeing themselves from bouts of depression, allergies, anxiety, grief, low self-esteem, debilitating mood disorders and physical ailments, such as blood pressure, IBS, migraines, even cancer!

I now believe that it is not possible to be impossible… This class has so much information in it that I was sitting there thinking sometimes that there is no way that I am learning all this until Skip (Senior Journey Practitioner and the senior trainer for North America) started asking questions and I could just rattle off the answers like I had been working with it for years not hours but that is the beauty of the whole thing all you really do is ask some questions the person you are processing is doing all the work for themselves. How crazy is that? But, I also feel that is why it works. You are just their to witness the beauty of source as people uncover the truth about themselves so they can be free.

Ever since the Journey Intensive I wanted to write to you both to thank you so very much. It has been a truly life-altering experience for me. The first time I came in contact with the Journey was over two years ago and even though I could see the value of the work it didn't seem to work for me, I guess I was just too closed up.

This time around I enjoyed the energy, the people - simply absolutely everything about that weekend was magical.

My life is rather difficult - as it is for many of us - daily survival as a single mom with no support and family is a constant stressor. I often felt that Source must have forgotten about me. Since the Journey weekend I have this constant glow in my heart - for the first time in my life I can feel my heart and I feel happy despite my current circumstances. First I worried that it will leave after a while, but I still feel it and I feel so alive. I can't tell you how very, very grateful I am to you both for letting me participate.

And there's more. My beautiful teenage daughter has taken a rather difficult path for herself. Struggling to cope with her share of pain she fell into the world of drug abuse. It's been quite the ride and if it wasn't for my faith I wouldn't know how to cope. A few months back I gave her the Journey book to read in the hope she might agree to a process. However she flung it at my feet with a few choice words.

After the Journey weekend she contacted me, feeling down and physically sick. I offered her a process, she agreed and did wonderful and then went on to see Jean for a second one that also went real well. She is doing a lot better at the moment and again I am so grateful for the opportunity you gave me. You and the Journey work have made such a difference in my life and I wanted to let you know that I am so very grateful and I appreciate all the work that you are doing. From my open heart I'd like to say THANK YOU!!

The essence of truth sits at the edge of every story and the story is what connects us and allows us to help each other to heal - and to find freedom.

I could not believe what I was being told. There was no doubt in my mind - until this moment - that it wasn't cancer. The surgeon went on to tell me when my surgery would take place and all I could hear was someone in the far distance talking, saying things I couldn't hear because my heart was beating so loudly in my ears.

I lay down on the operating table seemingly without choice and allowed a piece of me to be carved from my body. Afterwards, numb, staring at the stitches that held my breast together, my eyes stung with tears at the full realization of how weak and violated I felt.

My perfect breasts had been reduced to less than perfect. I was full of doubt. Had surgery been the right choice? Had it been my decision? I hated how my breast looked; it didn't feel like a part of me anymore. Worse, I hated how I felt and hated that I didn't have a clue how to not feel this way.

My husband's friend told me breast cancer on the right side meant anger and resentment. Who was he to tell me that and what did he mean? He couldn't have known how anger lived at the center of my being; the demon inside I tried so hard to keep secret. It lashed out at my husband and it kept me constantly irritable.

It was a hot Saturday afternoon in the middle of summer and I lay in bed crying - waiting for the doom of chemotherapy and radiation. Fear at the thought of these treatments sucked the energy from me and terrorized my mind. I didn't want to be sick... to lose my hair... to have poison injected into my veins. I was terrified it would kill me and I didn't know what to do. The phone rang. It was a friend of a friendwho had undergone natural therapy for something similar. She talked of alternative therapies and told me to get passionate about life. I honestly didn't know how to get passionate about life but I did know I wanted to live! Relief spread through my body at the realization that I could make choices to help myself. I hung up the phone, bound out of bed, and headed straight to the organic farm for some fresh vegetables to juice.

Mainstream or alternative, a decision had to be made. Sitting alone in our family room - engulfed by mind numbing indecision - fear pulled at my insides. How do I decide what to do? What if I make the wrong choice? There was a subtle recognition that my body felt strong when I thought of alternative therapies but weak when I thought of chemo and radiation. And a strange inner knowing came over me that if I listened to my body it would guide me. It felt right. I felt that trusting my body's wisdom could be the best thing that I ever did. That is the decision I made; to build my immune system instead of destroying it. I struggled initially to find someone willing to help me in my condition but I remained determined. Eventually I did find a naturopath to work with and I also discovered some other healing options that resonated with me. I found my healing path!

Through cancer I learned how to live in my body and how to trust my body's wisdom. I also learned how to love myself and how to live an authentic life. Exhaustion was a constant companion as I finished my treatments (high doses of Vitamin C dripping into my veins by intravenous). And knowing I was going back to work in a couple of months didn't help any and caused me a great deal of anxiety. The truth was I hadn't liked my job for a good many mainyears. After reading a few books on the law of attraction I began to realize that maybe I could have the life I always wanted. Although, in truth, I didn't have a clue what that life would be like because I hadn't dreamed or wished for anything in such a long time. I decided to quit my job. I didn't know if it was the right decision but it was my decision.

Doubt came visiting again, and with it depression. Was I really healed? Many days I just sat and did nothing while my mind raced with thoughts of all the things I should be doing. Some days I cried but mostly I just sat feeling nothing; trying desperately to feel something... anything. I was so empty inside. Friends called almost daily but I felt utter loneliness. Then the rage came. It started to erupt through my body like a volcano and I couldn't keep the lid on. I felt like I was losing my mind. My body would shake violently as a huge energy would surge up through me. I was completely out of control and after each of these episodes, I would cry, feeling lost, confused and ashamed.

After some weeks the force of this rage seemed to lessen in intensity and I just surrendered to it. I would sit and stare into space, arms limp at my sides, not saying or doing anything. I didn't even answer the phone. I gave up the fight. One day I woke up feeling good. Nothing had changed, I just felt happy. The feeling stayed and every morning I woke up ready to face the day. I started going for long walks and would imagine how I wanted my life to be and how I wanted to feel. I didn't know how or why this shift had happened but I was ready to begin to live my life, not just exist in it.

It was in this state of openness and inquiry that I heard about a book called The Journey by Brandon Bays. I was listening to a tele-seminar over the internet about cellular healing and the story of a woman -Brandon- who had healed herself from a serious illness. I had to know more and immediately picked up her book.

Her story, in so many ways, mirrored my own. She told of the huge energy that shook through her body and, how it was through the opening and surrender to these powerful emotions that she found release and healing. It touched me at my core. My experience over the last year and a half had been exactly this. She went on to say that this emotional journey of healing was available to everyone and could be undertaken in a matter of hours through guided processes that had been developed. I eagerly awaited my first Journey Intensive workshop and was not disappointed. It was to be the first step on my path to becoming a Journey practitioner.

Through my Journey work, I learned how my time of torment and grief helped heal my body. The fear and doubts were scary because I thought they were the illness. In my Journey processes I discovered how to open to these emotions and to welcome them as a part of who I am and, in that, to find my own forgiveness and release. I have been able to release the rage that was exploding to get out and today I wake up happy and free from the chains that kept me bound in my life.

The Journey became an integral part of the completion of my healing and I no longer have any doubt that I am completely healed. I have turned toward growth and today find myself living from a level of authenticity that I could only have imagined before. And I have the tools to look inside myself for even deeper awareness.

It is through The Journey that I have also discovered my life's purpose: to share my story and Journey work so that I can spread healing and hope to others. I have learned to love all parts of me, my slightly smaller breast, my scar, my anger, my fears, and I have been able to embrace the feeling of love I have for myself. It isn't selfish or arrogant to love oneself, it is imperative. It is my deepest prayer that we all find the freedom and healing available to all of us and can live from this amazing place of awareness. Through cancer I learned how to live in my body and how to trust my body's wisdom. I also learned how to love myself and how to live an authentic life. I am grateful everyday for the learning that continues to unfold.

My name is Jean Brazeau and I am a seven year breast cancer survivor. I am a survivor of brain and spinal cord tumors. I am also a survivor of violent physical, emotional, and sexual childhood abuse that had left me filled with fear, shame, anger, self hatred, guilt, and an endless number of self limiting beliefs about who I was in the world.

My life as I knew it started crumbling around me on March 11, 2000 when my oldest sister died unexpectedly. My strength to go on with my life as it was came from a daily dose of Wellbutrin.

Eleven months later, a routine mammogram revealed that I had breast cancer. At this moment in time, from somewhere deep within me, I knew this diagnosis would somehow free me from the life I was living which was not providing me with personal fulfillment or joy. Because I believed I had no control over cancer and because I had spent my entire life looking outside of myself to cope with the challenges of living and surviving, I numbly and mindlessly turned my body over to the medical community with the hopes that soon I would be having an opportunity for a new beginning to my life. As customary I parked the emotions somewhere deep inside where I would not have to face or feel them.

Motivational tapes in hand, I engaged in daily physical exercise and healthier eating habits, I ran for the cause, offered advise to others and was cited by the medical community as a model example of how to deal with cancer positively. As my treatment that included surgery, chemotherapy and radiation progressed, the battle became more difficult. The side effects of treatment took me to a new low and another anti-depressant was added to my repertoire to off-set the effects of the chemotherapy-induced menopause.

I vividly recall 9/11/2001, the day terrorists attacked America and the Twin Towers. The day started as any another day in my life which was then being defined by the cancer. Having just completed my final chemotherapy treatment, I sat in the family room glued to the television. The effects of chemotherapy and menopause were taking their toll. I was bloated, bald, weary to the bone, alone, afraid and seriously depressed. The world trauma of 9/11 added to my personally deep fears of what was going on in my life. Both my outer world and my personal world were falling apart, and it felt as though the world was coming to an end. I could feel myself slipping deeper into that black hole of depression and despair.

I was unable any longer to hide behind makeup and highlights or the shell that I had created and believed was me. I attempted to look inward and tried to convince myself I liked what I saw. In retrospect I realize looking inward for me was very superficial as I had no idea how to go very deep, nor did I have any idea of who I was. For the next two years, life presented me with more countless painful experiences including the deaths of my best friend's son, my brother-in-law, my step-father and my mother. It didn't seem to matter which corner I turned, there was always a hammer waiting to come down and validate my belief that life was hard. It was just nineteen months after completing treatment for breast cancer,another devastating blow came. A series of routine tests ordered by my oncologist uncovered "something unknown" in my brain and spinal cord. It was five short days after my mother's memorial service at a long awaited appointment with the NeuroSurgeon when he spoke the words of possible outcomes of "paraplegic", "irreversible damage", and "prioritized spinal cord surgery". Words that left me more in shock than I can ever verbalize.

But it was also in that moment that my new future became very clear to me, a future filled with a cycle of serious illnesses, more drugs to offset side affects, paralysis, death. It was on this day I got very angry and made a declaration of Enough already! No Way! No More! Somewhere deep inside I knew this was not how life was supposed to be. A series of synchronistic events followed this proclamation that introduced me to a totally new life paradigm. This paradigm invited me to explore different alternative and complementary healing modalities and offered a completely new and empowering perspective on the root of illness. Every cell in my being knew truth was being spoken when first exposed to the scientifically based teaching that the root of dis-ease, be it physical, emotional or spiritual, is repressed emotional trauma at the cellular level. This level of healing had not been explained to me by any of my medical team and certainly was BIG news to me!
I certainly had to acknowledge that I had life-long repressed emotions. I had lived a life that included breast cancer, elevated blood pressure and cholesterol, severe migraines, allergies so bad I would vomit on a moment's notice, a back so wracked with pain I could hardly walk, a brain tumor, spinal cord tumor, a diagnosis of depression, disassociate disorder and post traumatic stress disorder all of which threatened my very livelihood...WHEW !! That was a heavy load to carry.

Thus began my personal healing journey. I was spiritually dead, emotionally exhausted and my body was consumed with pain when I was guided to "The Journey". The Journey is both a book and a set of processes that Brandon Bays created after healing herself of a basketball sized tumor in 6½ weeks without chemotherapy, surgery, or pharmaceuticals. Since my initial introduction to the work of "The Journey", it has now became an integral part of my own personal healing, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It provided me with the love, safety, support and tools I needed to venture inward and to reclaim myself.

Over the course of the next year and a half while completing "The Journey" Accreditation Program, I bore witness to the most incredible metamorphosis taking place inside of me as I learned to shed the pain, grief, sadness, guilt, fear and anger that was ravishing my body, mind and spirit.

There is so much less of me here now, less ego, less anger, less fear, less envy, less desire, less attachment. At the same time there is so much more of me, more love, more joy, more compassion, more inner peace, more Gratitude.

In retrospect I realize I never knew who I was, I never even gave it a thought. I know who I am now, I stand proudly and comfortably in my own skin and everything about my life has changed. I am independent now, after having spent my whole life dependent on others, introspective after having spent my life analyzing others. Loving and compassionate in a way that no longer enables others in their self destructive behaviors. The worry which consumed my every thought in the past is gone and replaced with a great faith and knowing that all things will unfold exactly as they should....and it's all good! My health is great and I have more energy than I have had in a very long time. I am now unwilling to ingest anything that interferes with the flow of my energy or inhibits my ability to feel alive. The use of all prescription medication including those intended to minimize the recurrence of cancer fell away quite naturally at the onset of my personal journey into this complementary and alternative field. Around every corner is a new exciting adventure waiting for me. For the most part, life has become easy, effortless and so much more fun. There is no longer any question in my mind, we truly can and do affect our own experiences, What a blast!

I have also come to know for sure we are not the "labels" allopathic medicine has given us, we are not our illness or dis-ease. They are simply our bodies way of communicating with us. It is time for us to get still, go inside, start listening to what our bodies are trying so desperately to tell us. This is where true healing really begins.

In the fall of 2005, as the date of an impending elective surgery to remove my ovaries slowly neared, I acquired a severe case of hives ALL OVER my body. Not just ordinary run of the mill hives, but loud hives, flaming hives, out-of-control burning hives. My doctor followed the traditional western model for helping me by first prescribing steroid cream, which was only marginally effective. Next, she upped the ante by giving me oral steroids for eight days, which seemed to calm the symptoms. Once off the drug however, the hives returned with a vengeance, and my doctor resorted to injecting my rump with a brutally painful steroid shot that temporarily solved the problem, this time for about two weeks. Shortly thereafter, the hives reappeared, seemingly victorious against the steroidal invasion.

In the midst of this battle, feeling extremely frustrated with the vicious cycle of hives and steroids, my ears vibrated as I listened to a CD by Dr. Andrew Weil discussing skin problems. The wise Doc Weil declared that in his experience, skin problems always contain an emotional issue at the core. Thus, he recommended that his patients try to resolve their skin issues with hypnotherapy. Willing to try ANYTHING at this point, I called my doctor and shared Dr. Weil's advice. Enthusiastically she concurred with Dr. Weil's idea, which left me wondering why she hadn't suggested something like this before. My doctor gave me the name of a hypnotherapist and two days later I arrived for the appointment.

A graceful (grace-full!) woman greeted me warmly and explained that she was a certified hypnotherapist, but that she had found an even more effective modality called "The Journey" . She asked if I might be interested in trying a Journey process instead of hypnotherapy. Little did I know then that my "YES" reply was not only a response to her question, "YES" was also the answer to a whole new direction in my life and more importantly to LIFE itself. "YES!!!!" my body, mind, and spirit shouted. "YES! YES! YES!"

I learned the true source of my symptoms: RAGE!! One Journey session quelled the screaming hives and by the end of the week, after two more sessions, my hives disappeared FOREVER! More significantly than that – and believe me, the significance of being hive-free cannot be understated – I learned the true source of my symptoms: RAGE!!

At the (much too young) age of 33, I received a breast cancer diagnosis and underwent a modified radical mastectomy with a TRAM flap reconstruction. Reconstruction is actually a bit of a misnomer; my entire being felt utterly violated! Yet as I coped with the difficulties that go along with cancer diagnosis and traditional medical treatment, outwardly I projected a calm and courageous veneer, while unbeknownst to me, deep in the interior of my soul, I was seething with rage. Still, my optimistic nature carried me through the rough spots and covered up my deeper emotions and after five years my oncologist declared that I was cured! (Yep, he actually used the "cure" word). On top of that fabulous news I became pregnant with my first child at the ripe (almost too old) age of 38. Life seemed to be back on track and full of blessings.

Three speedy years later at my 16th routine oncology check up, and only several days after deciding to try for one more child at age 41 (definitely pushing the envelope for conceiving, but what did I care, I simply adored being a Mom!), I again received a diagnosis of a new primary breast cancer in my other breast. This time the news shattered my world! Not only was the cancer more invasive than the first one, but more importantly I was a Mommy! I was a Mommy!!!! I felt like an enormous tornado had swept me up and just tossed me asunder. I couldn't breathe or think or sleep. My whole world spun out of control. Though my psychological/spiritual toolbox contained many appropriate tools, I couldn't even manage to locate it, much less open it. At the time, I had no clue that what was really transpiring in the depths of my being was an ominous, explosive rage trying to make its way into my consciousness. My extreme anxiety was a huge cover up job. I had no reference point for feeling rage much less expressing it; no women in my family or community raged (or so it appeared!). The only women that I had observed rage were labeled bitches by the world. Oh no, raging was not an option and so with all my might I kept it hidden and the energy this choice required created unbelievable fear and fatigue. My oncologist put me on an anti-depressant which abated the power of the rage and dissipated the fear. My school district gave me a year leave-of-absence and I managed to make it through three more surgeries, chemotherapy, and mothering a three-year-old.

Cancer was merely a physical process of cells running amok. It was not a personal attack after all. I understood that my experiences weren't about good vs. evil or any other misconceptions I harbored A year later, as I faced the hive-causing ovary surgery, I realized that my body had done me a tremendous favor by bringing my buried rage to the surface. The hives raged in unison with my soul! After healing from the hives and going through several additional Journey processes with my hypnotherapist/journey practitioner, I attended my first Journey Intensive where I received two more processes, learned how and why they work, practiced how to give them, and discovered how to truly forgive. That weekend the physical Journey process I went through turned out to be the key to unlocking all that I had buried so deep inside. In that process, I sat at a campfire with Cancer. Cancer showed up as a large, pink, blobby mass covered with mouths all over. I spoke first and painfully emptied out a myriad range of emotions, thoughts, and feelings about having undergone cancer treatment twice, inheriting the BRCA 2 gene, watching cancer eat away my father's face and then his life force, discovering how cancer had maimed my grandmother, and witnessing cancer kill two aunts, an uncle, my favorite cousin, and several friends. At the campfire, I really let Cancer have it with both barrels. I cussed, I sobbed, I stomped my feet, I raged, I grieved, I pleaded, and I moaned "why?" until finally, I was empty. Then Cancer had its turn to reply. It simply responded, "That's what I do. I eat things. I'm an overactive cell that eats things, reproduces more cells and keeps eating things." That was all! This response left me stunned and pierced through all the torrid emotions, leaving me in a strangely peaceful state of being. In that moment I realized that I had unwittingly given cancer a sinister personality with malevolent intentions. This realization enabled me to begin a process of unhooking from the drama I had created around cancer. Cancer was merely a physical process of cells running amok. It was not a personal attack after all. I understood that my experiences weren't about good vs. evil or any other misconceptions I harbored, and that I had openly given my power away to an accursed phantom. After that Journey Intensive, the question of "why?" began slipping from my vocabulary, being replaced with the invitation, "Tell me more. What would you like me to learn?"

As alarming as it might sound to WILLINGLY spend time cussing, sobbing, stomping my feet, raging, grieving, pleading, and moaning, I LOVE doing Journey processes because they are enormously creative, deeply empowering, and truly transformative. The Journey has given me unbelievable gifts! I have learned how to access and express all my emotions (some that I didn't even know I had). By opening up a wide, expansive door to my soul, The Journey has enabled me to look deeply, see, and embrace "the good, the bad, and the ugly" in all parts of myself. During Journey processes I have uncovered numerous blocks (illusions, miscon

1. It is okay to cry.
2. Healing is a process and a journey of self and spiritual discovery.
3. Healing my physical body of breast cancer is just one third of the healing process; my mind and spirit need healing too.
4. I have to address my fears, they can't be ignored. When fears show up in my life, I know they have specific lessons to teach me, to show me something greater within myself or in my life than the fear.
5. I could not have healed without the people in my life, the medical teams, work teams, and my family and friends and community members. I share these thoughts with you as an invitation to explore your fears and to become empowered and strengthened as a result of working with teams of individuals that care about your well-being.
6. Laughter, proper nutrition, proper breathing, and sound sleep are vital for my body to heal.
7. Being grateful for everything and everyone in my life always moves me another step forward in my healing journey.
8. I am not complete in my healing cycles until I can give freely and compassionately to others along the way.
9. Even in the death processes, special healing can occur.
10. The first step begins with honesty and asking myself if I am willing to be part of the solution and asking for help on the days that I need an extra hand, an extra hug, or a caring voice to hear my pain, or a good cry, and when I know I need others to teach me the way forward.
11. The power of prayer and the power of my faith are my greatest resources.
12. I am enough just as I am

In 1997, my husband, Russell, of 19 years died of cancer after 4 long years of living with it. It had taken a tremendous toll of time and energy to keep him in physical form that long. We have two beautiful children and the two of us were happy. Russell so wanted to stay around longer in physical form and yet his body was riddled with cancer. He was so weak.

He died September 9th, it was a Sunday and a beautiful fall day...his favorite season and favorite day of the week.

After his death, I was exhausted, worn out from all of the trying and worry that I had engaged in (I did not know about the Law of Attraction then). I was vulnerable and completely disoriented. It actually had never occurred to me that he would die.

It was within a very short period of time that I was catapulted into a depression that I could not shake. I was a trained counselor/psychologist at the time and was led to a counselor for help. I saw this counselor for over 4 years each week. She had no idea why this depression was not lifting and neither did I. I was looking for help everywhere I could. I knew that something was wrong and I did not know what it was that kept this depression hanging on.

At a time, when I was constantly in bed, trying to drown out the never-ending suicidal thoughts, I began to pray for help or relief in the form of death from the way I was thinking and feeling.

It was felt like "a time from hell"...and as it happens, when we ask we get led to our he