I Feel Like a Woman With a Toolbox
I truly feel like I’ve evolved from “Orphan Annie” to “Annie Get Your Gun” with ammunition unlimited in the shape of balloons filled with voice, courage, strength, self-worth, self-esteem and unconditional love, I am in awe over God’s amazing grace and how if i take one step towards Him; He is standing there with outstretched arms.
During the summer months of my farming I went through a powerful process in which i had my dad at the campfire. My dad committed suicide 28 years ago. I thought i had forgiven him many times over but truth spoke different. Because my dad had abandoned me – no goodbye, no left behind note – nothing; I shut down to God’s way of life. I had this clear awareness that dad being a man, there was no way i was going to let a man of leadership and of fatherly qualities into my life. 28 years went by where i went to church, sat in a wooden pew, played organ, taught Sunday School and the reality of that was – a numb state. I called myself a Christian reluctantly only b/c that’s what we do but had no feelings of truth towards God. My heart felt cold and icy at the best of times. I couldn’t accept God (good orderly direction) into my life b/c i was closed. The door to my heart was bolted shut.
Well! I feel empowered with His saving Grace. I feel. Once i dropped down the layers and felt the warmth, saw light, felt embraced and safe, I am feeling such a calm. I feel like a woman with a toolbox.
And again this weekend. Same people at the campfire. Approaching them from a different angle and feeling their forgiveness and passing it forward. Amazing Grace.
I want more Journeywork experience in my life. I feel it in the very being of me. And it will happen.
Grace Has Been With Me Always but Not Able to Serve Me Fully Until Now
It has taken me a few days to settle in after this most incredible, joyous discovery that continues through the Journey process. I feel full of enormous gratitude for meeting you and Brandon at this point in my life. As one who has been on the path to finding the truth for close to fifty years, I have grown to trust that these riches continue throughout our lives. What you have enabled me to see is those hidden corners where vestiges of obstacles reside.
I have dreamt of this process a number of years ago, the memory now returned, perhaps I was asking for more help from my deeper self during great difficulty in understanding. And so I find the recognition that grace has been with me always but not able to serve me fully until now. I wish to continue pursuing the process and discovering more of my potential.
Words are really not enough to express my feelings, you are indeed truly blessed.
Eines der tiefsten, einfachsten, liebevollsten und befreiendsten Seminare
„Eines der tiefsten, einfachsten, liebevollsten und befreiendsten Seminare die ich je besucht habe. Danke!”
“War sehr berührt von der Offenheit und dem Feingefühl der Seminarleiterin und der Trainer. Wurde wunderbar begleitet durch alle Prozesse! Hab für mich genau das gefunden, wonach ich mich gesehnt habe. Danke.”
What is it that keeps us bottled up?
I will share with you why this work has become my passion and how my Journey experience has transformed my life.
After one failed marriage and diving into another, I realized that my future looked very much like my past. In my heart I sensed I was repeating my mistakes. This time was a bit different; this man was free-spirited and believed in himself. He was not easily influenced by others. What attracted me to him was that he had the very qualities that I desired, admired and with which I fell in love. Today I have realized (and my realization via the Journey confirms) that I was attracted to my husband’s qualities because my subconscious craved this freedom of self-expression and self-love. I realized I did possess these qualities. – How could I reveal them?
The Journey, as the name implies is a journey through the emotions which leads to the uncovering of an unspeakable truth. What is it that keeps us bottled up? What is it that hurts us so? What is it that has been done to us that has traumatized us so that we are afraid of opening up and being our selves? The Journey helped me feel the strength and courage to open up and deal with the issues that essentially ruled my life through childhood and into adulthood. My problem was my dysfunctional family. My parents got divorced when I was very young. Too young to remember the details, but certainly old enough to verbalize my resentment as I got older, the environment within my home was one of sadness, peppered with insults, fighting and a feeling of total disconnect. The reality of living in two different households created a sense of not belonging or being wanted. Then my mother re-married, looking back I realize she was just spinning her wheel in a different direction (another version of my own story.) My father on the other hand, shut down emotionally after the divorce.
I did not realize how this had affected me until I was an adult and in my second marriage. Now that I thought I had “everything”, I still had this void inside -a black hole, a deep feeling of emptiness: This is one inner secret with which many of us can identify.
My quest to be able to feel again.
My first Journey session took five hours. There was a great deal to uncover in order to reveal that deep hole. Yes, the Journey gets underneath the issues, arrive at it and releases it at the core, and allow for a healthy cellular regeneration. But how can this happen if this is suppressed? The essence of my journey concentrated on my relationship, or lack of relationship, I had with my mother. As a child, all I remember is screaming, negativity, humiliation, demand for perfection and lack of physical and emotional contact, a total depravation of love. I longed for attention; hugs, a sense of security and acceptance. Basically I just wanted to be loved. Confronting and opening up the wounds caused by this neglect and my resentment and sadness of being robbed of a childhood caused me to be angry, depressed, frustrated, negative. I sensed that these particular emotions were the cause to the emptiness that I felt inside. Once with a Journey practitioner in Sweden named Agneta Johansson, I vowed to let go, and feel the raw tightness in my gut as I relived those painful memories. I was able to feel the fears, and the sense of resentment that stemmed from my childhood. There was nothing “childlike” during this portion of my life. It was all about survival: no feeling at all, just numbness. Now I was on a quest to be able to feel again.
Forgiveness is the “only” emotion that restores balance.
The journey process starts by finding your own inner body wisdom. It latches to a specific memory connected to a negative emotion/s that you have stored. This memory is blocking any possibility of productive and positive energy, needed to fuel emotions for a healthy soul. The Journey is a vessel that goes from stage to stage and helps you release the negative emotions. Forgiveness is the “only” emotion that restores balance, equilibrium and a sense of peace. It is this fulfillment that allows for love to evolve. This was my triumph: I forgave my mother and father, and I was able to save my marriage. Once I cleared my emptiness and brought back peace, harmony and a sense of self-love and belonging. I had a different perspective on my relationship with my husband and children. It has allowed me to be passionate, open and be myself. What one journey session did for me was more than months of traditional therapy had ever accomplished. I decided to share this work and become an accredited Journey practitioner.
The journey experience is more than simply an experience. It is transformational. It connects you with your inner core and it allows you to be strong in the face of fear. It gives you courage and is such a positive tool that you want to share the experience with loved ones.
The conviction that the Journey releases suppressed emotions led me to believe that when the parent goes through the Journey experience can he/she relate easier to an issue that their child may have. I can attest to this because it was not a surprise that in my daughter’s journey I learned that in some ways I was treating my daughter as my mother had treated me. My older daughter revealed in her journey that she felt I was giving more attention and love to her younger sister. My daughter was right, I did not see it, I certainly did not willingly give more attention to one or the other, but she sensed this and this is what she believed. I believed that the problem was that I was not capable of showing my emotions to her. The difference now is that I know better. My daughter and I now have a great relationship – one in which we really connect. The ironic part is that out of her journey my own daughter helped me to uncover something that was also hidden. As a child I felt that my mother gave more attention to my brother.
The beauty of the Journey is that you can clear one issue at a time. Metaphorically this is just like peeling an onion; when one skin is taken off, there is another underneath. Same with issues, there will always be another to uncover.
I feel enormous appreciation and gratitude to Brandon Bays for taking her conviction and sharing her experience with her inner issues and creating this simple, powerful tool which is available to every human being.
You have a choice and it is as simple as the Journey. You can buy the book and do it yourself or seek an accredited practitioner for support. Either way, the fact that you are interested in this wonderful tool shows that you are on the road of healing.
„Ich bin verängstigt und verzweifelt angekommen, befreit und erleichtert nach Hause gegangen. Ich fühlte mich bestens aufgehoben, behütet und getragen.”
„Kein Psychologe hat das geschafft, was ich mit eurer Hilfe aufdecken durfte. In Dankbarkeit und Frieden “