Thank you is too insignificant a word to express how I feel about what you have done for me, through the journey process you took me on. It begins in the morning when I wake and I actually feel well rested and can’t wait to get up and begin my day, I feel so happy, hopeful that my life is exactly as it should be, otherwise stressful situations and hurtful events are all things that just wash over me now in a very surreal way, acknowledged but hardly affecting my peace of mind.
The changes are so subtle but so profound, my memory is a hundred times better, no more big lists of to dos), even my hand writing is different, there’s a certain continuity to mundane things, I have begun to do crosswords not something I would have attempted before, can’t spell and too busy, not now life’s a breeze and I get more productive things done. Even the colours in my wardrobe has changed, I used to wear reds and purples (bright loud colours) now there are greens and blues and yellow, a colour I would never have even contemplated wearing a few months ago.
I feel brand new, honestly all these things are amazing, but the most profound change has been in a medical condition that has been progressively getting worse for twenty years, three years ago my Doctor put me on medication to control an out of control bladder, five months ago I had to give up the medication because it was causing other problems, so I had resigned myself to having a over active bladder. Embarrassment and annoyance were my constant companions.
A week after my last process I found myself out without my usual pads, a situation that caused me to immediately return home for some security, as going without wasn’t an option, then I thought, I hadn’t needed to use the toilet all morning, unheard of for me, so for the rest of the day I waited and watched, at first I thought maybe I hadn’t been drinking enough, but no that wasn’t the case, so the next day I tested not daring to hope that this horrible condition had been cured, drank all day and had normal bladder function, that was a little over a month ago and I have not sprung a leak once, and that’s a miracle to my way of thinking, no amount of medical intervention or alternative treatments have worked but something has, so long may it last and I didn’t have to do any anything my body has returned to normal.