I searched this whole lifetime for who I am, for the definition of my beliefs, for the direction of my life. I traveled to India and back again. I meditated…not successfully. I searched for spiritual and emotional soundness, always under a pall of depression. I was considered a spiritual teacher by some and knew it was a lie. I’ve a masters in psych and Multiple certifications in life coaching and NLP. Yet as much as I wanted to serve and help, I could not bring myself to work with people. There was not a degree that would lessen the fear that I was not enough for them. (I wasn’t. I didn’t realize it wasn’t about me.) The further I searched the more discouraged I became with tremendous feelings of failure, of being Lost and mostly of grief for not being who I knew I could be.
The process of experiencing and living the Journey has given me life. On the other side of the Practitioner program I have found peace and appreciation for who I am and where I am. I have self confidence for the first time in my life. The Journey has allowed me to choose how to define myself in this life and to be that. How powerful that has been for me. I am no longer trying but doing. I am no longer searching but living. And I look forward to each day’s growth with the knowing that this only gets better.
I once heard that “Your life is God’s gift to you. What you do with it is your gift to God”. The Journey has allowed me to offer that gift with inner knowing, strength, choice and meaning. Life is good.